WHAT IS LOVE WITHOUT TRUST?
Yesterday, I went for a walk. I used to love to walk outside and work my body hard.
But then I was down with a back injury in November. All of a sudden, all of the work I’ve done over the course of the past three years to learn to trust my body seemed to shatter.
It was the first time in a long time I had been angry with it; I couldn’t believe that it had betrayed me like this.So when I made the decision to take a walk yesterday, the fear response was real: what if the pain comes back and I’m laid up again? What if I just make everything worse?
So I did a quick statement clear before heading out the door, saying aloud “I trust my body.” The emotion to be cleared was Letting Go. Specifically, it was my reluctance to let go of ALL of the stories I’ve been telling myself about my body, my fitness, my health. It was about letting go of the fear of creating the chronic illnesses in myself that my family members suffer from.
Most importantly, it was about letting go and doing the fun thing …which is how I ended up walking home from the library with My Little Pony books in my hands to read until my heart’s content.
It is so common for us to NOT trust our bodies. We’re conditioned not to. There is a whole countermovement, a body positivity movement, promoting body love, which I’ve come to see as superficial. Most of what the leaders in this movement are actually advocating for it body acceptance and froo froo pampering. This is only part of it. We HAVE to trust our bodies in order to truly love them!
What would it be like for you to just fully trust in your body- its signals, its capabilities, its hunger?
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