Permission to Evolve: rewriting my internal narrative

thejoygoddess
Nov 28, 2025
3 min read

Autumn has certainly been the season of letting go for me...and frankly, it's been hard.

Letting go of my mother… and subsequently, loosening the grip of the limiting stories passed down through her- stories I’m still unraveling and setting down. With each release, I’m opening more to the possibility of who I get to be when outdated beliefs that haven’t served me for years are no longer driving the narrative.

I’m consciously choosing what I carry forward of her- the love, the creativity, the warmth- and letting go of the self-doubt, the dimming, the inherited fears. As those old beliefs dissolve, I find myself reconnecting with my creativity in a way I've been missing. I’ve been returning to music…the part of me that was alive from childhood through my college years. I feel like I'm finally remembering.

I’ve also released the old energy of a home my partner and I had simply outgrown…and opened into a new home that feels REALLY good energetically, emotionally, spiritually. A space that invites possibility.

In this season, I’ve also been getting clearer and clearer about my desires- in my romantic relationship, my friendships, my business, my health, and my life overall. It feels like dust is settling and the path is coming into focus.

And earlier this month, something happened that surprised me. I got to actually integrate the experience of being an extrovert- not just imagine it, not just admire it in others, but embody it. I challenged the story that I’m “so introverted that public events are too much for me.” I met new people, lit up in conversation, talked passionately about the Erotic Blueprints…and I loved it. Despite being up way past my bedtime and waking early the next morning, I was energized. I felt more alive than I had in a very long time.

The funny thing is...I was so nervous heading into that event! I was sure I would fail epically. But instead, I woke up a version of myself that had been sleeping so deeply I genuinely believed they no longer existed. I’d accepted the old story as fact. As absolute, unquestionable truth.

But here’s what I’m learning in this season of release:

When we don’t bother to question what we think we know about ourselves…how do we know it’s actually true?

How much of our “self-truth” is real and how much of it is simply reinforced belief?

How much is who we are and how much is who we became because we stopped questioning?

These are the questions I’m living inside of right now- in this Autumn of letting go. In that...I'm also releasing the need for this blog to tie up nice and neat for you. Because to do so would deny what feels true for me in this moment- that my internal landscape is a big hot mess right now. 🤣

If you too are in a tender season of shedding…

If you’re ready to prune old beliefs…to clear emotional clutter…to let go of identities that no longer fit…to release what has been quietly draining your energy…

Then I invite you into The Autumn Journal: A Season of Letting Go.

Inside, you’ll find journal prompts that help you: